April was a pivotal month for our family. The heaviness in my heart for change in my personal life was stirring for about 2 years prior. I was struggling at work with happiness. Toggling back and forth with the notion of grad school. I thought maybe God was pulling me outside of my current employment to another job title. The list goes on and on. So I started to really pray for that unsettling emotion of change on the horizon. I started to ask the Lord for His will to overtake my own desires of immediate gratification in my professional career, and just asked Him to prepare me and open the right door at the right time. Time passed and I applied to other jobs and even to grad school, to no avail. Mother's day came around, and I got to go part-time, and for a moment, a long moment, I thought this is what the horizon had for me. But that unsettling feeling was back. So my prayer continued. Around this time, Marcus really began to struggle at his own job with personal satisfaction, so he threw the "what if I quit and go out on my own" on me? Normally, and historically, I had slapped that notion away, almost immediately. But this time, I could sense and see the ambition in his voice. Not that I hadn't before, it is just that my personality when it comes to things like this is of operational fear. I am scared, and tend to shut it down, almost immediately because the game of "what if" brings on a serious boil and the ability to simmer and slowly cook is unyielding. This moment, however, was different. And I realized that for 2 years, God had placed a seed of change in my heart for my husband and not myself. This is where the two become one in a marriage became truly instrumental, and God was preparing me for the change...Marcus's change, our change. And the fear operating, stress responding and no way in heck, chance taking Monica was no where to be found, because I had been simmering and slow cooking for so long. God had been preparing me for quite some time, so when Marcus yanked the pot from the burner, I was there...ready. He has started his own company after faithfully devoting himself for 19 years to someone else, and is working now, harder than ever, but for himself. Our family couldn't be more proud. We love him, and he is already making big moves!